Me: Writes post about overcoming perfectionism, starts by changing the title ten times in a row. I have perfectionist tendencies. For me, perfectionism means scrutinizing everything I do, say, and think, and rarely measuring up to my own standards. I think in black and white terms: good or bad, smart or stupid, perfect or unacceptable.…
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I’m Scared to Try
I’m scared to put myself out there. I’m scared to finish my book and release it. I’m scared to post regularly on social media. I’m scared to be noticed. But above all, I’m scared to not be noticed. After months of putting it off, I finally started an Instagram to accompany this blog. Part of…
Read MoreReaching – A Little Prose #1
I look around and think, who are these people? Is this what I am? Am I different? Is that better? Should I drown every part of me that’s confused and uncomfortable, and feels that there’s more than this? Of course not.
Read MoreI Don’t Want To
I’ve been confronting my laziness. Every time I find a shred of motivation, I tell myself: “I don’t feel like it yet.” “I’ve been having a hard time, I deserve a break.” It’s easy to give in to my impulse to take a break, to rest, but it never feels right. It never feels like…
Read MoreRejection: Part 2
I’ve been gone (again), because I applied for another job I really wanted (again), had a good interview (again), and got rejected (again). Why do I stop writing when I’m stressed?! Why do I stop doing the one thing that makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something worthwhile? Even though I’ve stopped writing for my…
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Rejection
I’m back. So, that thing I stopped writing to focus on? A job interview. I didn’t get the job. I’m sad. The interview went well, I thought I would get it. However, I’m not as upset as I thought I would be. I had so much anxiety about the job, it’s just nice to get…
Read MoreWeekly Favorites 6/15/18
This has been a weird week. It wasn’t truly bad, but everyday, things were a little off. I didn’t add to my novel for a couple of days, which always makes the day worse — got back on the horse yesterday. Pretty much all I accomplished was writing 2,000 words. I spent the rest of…
Read MoreHow to be Creative When You Don’t Feel Like It
I feel like garbage as I write this. Hot garbage. I woke up with a headache. I have three giant pimples on my chin that won’t go away. I have inventory at work this week, where my coworkers and I come into work at 6 a.m. to count a warehouse full of supplies, and then…
Read MoreCan I Do This?
Novel Word Count: 16,242 Can I do this? Can I make a living off writing? I made the mistake of Googling “Should I be a writer?”; I knew it was a bad idea. I found all sorts of discouraging information. In one mean spirited article the writer essentially said: writing is hard, you probably suck at…
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K. J. Cole 